Super Heavy Metal Fest 4

The Tree - Claremore 322 S JM Davis Blvd
March 20th

Lineup includes:
Solid Iron Affair and some other bands...

Having said that.....

UGH I know other mom's can identify with the mad obsession of controlling what happens concerning our children. It can really drive you crazy if you let it. Can we control everything? No of course not....but we can try. The problem is that when other people are involved that don't have the same moral values or standards of living, you feel helpless! And for a mom trying to guard her child, feeling helpless can really make the claws come out :) I understand completely a mama bear ripping to shreds anything or anyone threatening her young cub.
So yeah try as we might...we cannot control everything concerning our children. We just have to make sure we are the ones who provide the safe stable environment and teach them the necessary life skills to cope with whatever comes their way. Life won't always be fair and mixed messages are being thrown at our children everyday. All we can do is stick to what we know is right...make the best choices we can for them and be there for them when they get crapped on by the idiots in the world that we all try to avoid.
That's my two cents for the day

Hatred is a bad thing

I've come to learn as painful as it is....that bitterness, resentment, and absolute loathing is a LOT of work. It really just takes too much energy and as much as someone may deserve it....I DON'T deserve to live that way. Of course this is something I have known since I was old enough to hear the lessons on forgiveness. Now i'm actually having to put it into action.
I can only be the mom God has called me to be and He will have to take care of the rest. I can't be a shield every minute of every day for my son, I can only believe and expect absolute and total protection for him and trust that angels are watching over him. That's a tall order but all things are possible with God.

Change

So my New Year's eve was literally the best one I've had in eight years. I have always had such high hopes in New Years past and every year I would be sadly disapointed....year after year. I was disapointed because things never changed....as much as I changed on the outside and the inside, nothing else did. As much as I tried to be optimistic it just ended up the same....which was just misery.

So enough about the bad stuff!!! What a great way to start the New Year....good friends, new and old...new hopes, new dreams...and new expectations.

As far as my new changes go....my son is also dealing with the changes as well. He is adjusting great...better than I expected but when you have a negative energy in the house and then have it removed....you feel a sense of relief I guess. That's what he feels I think...relief. Now all i can do is pray protection over him every time he makes his weekend trips....that's the hardest part for me...watching him go and not being able to shield him from anything while he is away....But I have to trust that God can protect him and as long as I still teach him the difference between right and wrong...the ugly inappropriate stuff will have no place in his life!!!